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Also say that I do this. Wonder what will be better: a small group setting or in-front of a class.

Because I could be getting a whole lot of hate or love or confusion in my way if I am not careful about things.

(And, I much rather know someone’s of DID rather to find out the hard way. Like if they have negative opinions about DID, will it even be worth it to continue a relationship with them?)

[darthcat]

A little of the specifics.

We would usually dissociate and Freeze.

And pretty much anything upper-body related feels weird, and we feel the need to move it randomly.

(Maybe I am actually worried if people will actually give a damn about us and ask us what is wrong. Sorry, don’t have comfortability there. ????)

[darthcat]

Any medication in of its self comes with unknown side-effects.

With DID/OSDD being having a lack of research as it is, in a pharmacological standpoint. Hell, no!

We do not want to be supporting Big Pharma.

Our brains have only existed as a system, I do not know what life would look with only one of us here. Nor, do I really care to find out.

To us it feels like “why should one existence be prioritized over others?”

Sure, we do have fears within our system, being that we are still getting to know ours. Though, that is usually stems down to “what if everything goes quiet and we are here, all alone?” So, even in our fears, we have fears about not being a system.

We do not know the perspective of someone whose response would be “Hell, yes!”

Though we are curious, we might also be worried about “what does this mean for us?”

[darthcat]

Greetings,

We might be on the younger side of things. We are 17 years old. Will be 18 in about a week?

We are about less than a year in our system discovery/awareness, the start of 2023.

At this point we are still un-diagnosed, partly because we live at home with our bio-parents and even though our father is a psychologist and mother majored/minored in Psychology and Sociology, we keep our plurality hidden from them. And, because we need a better therapist or hopefully a specialist. (We also think that we are on the Autistic Spectrum because our parents self-diagnosed us at a young age, though we have no formal diagnosis which surprised our current therapist). Basically, “look for all things under the sun.”

We are weeks away from graduating high school and college starts in the fall. And, ready to experience dorm life away from our family. (At least our brother finally moved into his apartment).

We are a jumbled mess of headmates most of the time. And we do not know who is who and what is what. Names are tricky because some of us have names, but we do not know who the names belong to.

In terms of hobbies and interests: reading, knitting, watching television, painting (sometimes finger painting), stuffed animals (the only hugs we get/like /j), curling, horse back riding (hoping our college has a club that we can join), Dungeons and Dragons (we are a part of a club at our high school). Doctor Who and LOTR. Science fiction and Fantasy.

Pretty much anything that we can distract ourselves with and get some joy from, within in reason, of course. We also have a special interest in things DID/OSDD related (half the reason why we became aware of our own plurality).

We hope by doing things like this we can improve communication for us and some fear along the way. And build a sense of community, even if online.

P.S. If you want a brief synopsis of our life read “The Mordant’s Needs” series by Stephen R. Donaldson, we resonated with the series a lot, and recommend it for reading).\

P.P.S We have a thing for typing a lot.

[darthcat]

Born and raised in Ohio, USA.

(Why are there things like: “Only in Ohio…” Or, “of course it happened in Ohio.”)

I know that we live here, we are just very isolated (both by choice and not having social media accounts, or many friends who talk about politics.

[darthcat]

Good to know.

Don’t know what college will look like, but we are excited and nervous about it. Safer than home, probably. ????

[darthcat]

Good to know.

Was curious, did not know that kind of thinking was potentially harmful. So, thanks for that.

[darthcat]

Thank you so much for this! ????

[darthcat]

Darn, we were thinking exclusively of dorm rooms. ????

Have not even thought of a park or in our car. So thanks for that. Or, even on a phone.

This brings more opportunity (teletherapy being anywhere), especially when we do not know at the moment our dorm situation and who we are rooming with.

[darthcat]

Have not played Magic: The Gathering.

Even though our brother asks us a lot to play with him, but by playing with him means spending more time with him, which is not ideal.

[darthcat]

Planning to go into college as undecided, due to multiple interests and also finding out what we actually like. And how we can distinguish ourselves as individuals while still being a system.

We have DM’d maybe a few times, I do not know.

If we can use a book fine, but as long as all the NPCs can be autistic.

Short answer about being a DM: it is a confidence thing, once getting into the motion of things will probably be less nerve-wrecking?