Hi I’m new here, based in the uk
I don’t know where to start really, I got my CPTSD and DID diagnosis this week altho I have been treated as having theese conditions for over a year now.
my DID has masked itself up until a few years ago, before then my closest friends and family just thought I was really forgetful and had mood swings.
I don’t have an inner world and I can’t communicate with my other personalities. They can communicate in my head but I know nothing. When I dissociate I have no idea what we have been up to. It’s very confusing and complicated.
I feel alone like no one else has it quite like me but I’m hoping through here I can find people who may relate.
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Every system is unique, but I think you’ll find a lot of us have had similar experiences. I (Janet) didn’t have access to our inner world for YEARS. Like you, I just skipped time. But eventually things worked out, and I gained more co-consciousness and access. I still black out more than any of the other main alters in our system, and that’s really frustrating, but I’ve learned to trust in my team. That took a LOT of work and therapy. But you can get there. 🙂
Hey, no worries, inner worlds are way less common then they appear. You’ll often hear people say they can communicate with alters, or remember some of what happened during a switch. They might just be advanced in their healing journey, or have OSDD. Btw, the criteria for DID in Europe is different then in America. A lot of people who qualify for DID in the dsm qualify for OSDD instead in the ICD. So you might feel like you have way more intense dissociation then most DID patients, when really… that’s just how DID is. The host (ANP) isn’t meant to know what’s going on. It’ll come with time, you got this.
Hey thanks for the reply, im getting to grips with the abbreviations lol. That’s so strange to me because in England they don’t give you that diagnosis unless its DID and they have studied you and ruled out everything else. It’s very rare in England my Mental health team said I’m only 1 of 2 people with DID that they see