Is it bad that I want all of the other people in my head to shut up and go away?
I just want everything to go back to how things were before we were self aware
I want to shut each and every single one of these parts into some sort of toy bin and seal the lid shut,
To lock them away with the discarded slinkies and furbies of my childhood
I hate living like this
I just want to be semi-normal again
[*existential screams*]
I don’t think you’re bad for feeling this way. I think that it’s ok for you to express your feelings about the disorder that you have, regardless of whether they’re “good” or “bad” feelings. Your feelings are valid. It sucks to have DID. It’s debilitating and crippling.
However, I also know that there are loads of people who live very happy and fulfilling lives, regardless of their struggles. I consider myself very far from functional, but I’m holding onto hope that eventually we’ll be able to heal from the trauma we’ve all experienced and learn to work together more cohesively.
I know it might feel hopeless, but I believe in you. Everyone’s healing journey is different, but I’ve always felt it’s better to talk about how you’re feeling rather than keep everything festering inside. And even if these feelings never go away, the community that TEC created here is (in our opinion) a safe place to express these emotions. <3
Thank you for this! Possum has been stressing since it wrote this, and I can tell that this comment made them feel a little bit better /g /pos
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