New Alter and Some Validation

Kind of a rambley blog update about alters coming out of dormancy and some (positive) family talk.

I told our grandma about our DID a few months ago. She took it surprisingly well. She was not judgmental, and she doesn’t think any differently of me than she did before. She just didn’t understand the extent or complexities of our disorder (which is completely understandable) at least until a few weeks ago.

I feel so insanely blessed to have had such good experiences when telling others about our disorder. We’ve really only had one bad interaction with others over it (which admittedly wasn’t too horrible), but most of our interactions have been positive. I’m so lucky to have such an amazing support system.

However, a few weeks ago a new alter fronted. We won’t go into too much detail about what happened when they fronted, as the alter involved is a middle. Needless to say though, they did visit our grandma while they were out, so she definitely knows now the extent of our disorder and what happens when we become extremely triggered. When I (Luna) came back out, our grandma told me that she saw me come back. It felt strangely validating to hear her confirm that she saw the switch. I can’t really “see” myself switch, I just get the memory gaps and dissociation. It’s just a weirdly nice feeling to be validated in such a way.

If the middle who fronted is reading this, you are safe and you are loved. I and the system are going to take care of and protect you.

On another note, we’re going to be visiting our mom, stepdad, and sister in a couple weeks. It’s been so long since I’ve seen them and we’re all pretty excited inside. They also know about our DID, and our mom has met a couple of the other parts so I’m wondering if more of them will feel comfortable enough to unmask around her. Regardless, we’re gonna be really happy to see them.

Much love to everybody,

Luna Evanstar